Self Sketch
©1987 Craig Ashby
Pencil

Self Sketch is the end of it all. The post a day year has gone by quickly. I thought I would end it like I started it, with a self portrait.

A lovely pencil sketch from eighties on the back of typed letter. So cute. Am I the only person who hoards this kind of stuff and then drags it around with them for a lifetime?

Because I am writing this so far in advance, I want to say I will take a big break after this. I want to say a whole month. But I am too old to say stuff about the future.

What I should focus on is where to go next. I want quicker posting. More off the cuff posting. More gut reaction. But that shouldn’t be the focus.

I want that mature work Stella spoke of. I think next year is all about that. I need that beauty and edge to come together for me. I wonder if I will even know when I do it.

Even if it never looks like their mature work I still wish it. I know I don’t have a huge staff ready to mix my paints and help me with my laser cutter, but there is still a lot of life in me yet. I know I have a lot of strength left.