Leftover
©2015 Craig Ashby
2.75″ x 3″
Mixed Media

Leftover is a quick piece I made with the sticker remains from the Icons-Siouxsie piece. I quickly rummaged through my box for an appropriate background. I then found this marbleized piece of paper from Billie Durham.

Billie died recently and I could barely say anything. This new phenomenon of finding out people you know are dead via Facebook is stunning. So stunning that even I can’t even respond. Which is usually never an issue for me, quick responses being my forte.

So when I think of Danielle, Rick, Lolly and Billie I just feel an amazing sadness. Finding out about someone dying that you knew in the same way you would a celebrity is terrifying.

It’s so of this moment that the terror and sadness are compounded. I should have said something, but just the presence of a like button near this news causes paralysis in me.

How do you even like these statements, even if positive? It just doesn’t work for me. Not speaking up seemed the kindest of responses on my part. I apologize for the silence.

I think it comes from having lost my own parents when I was young. I hated most of what people mistake for comfort. She is in heaven or it will get better. It was grotesque at best. Even worse is that twenty five years later it still hurts.